Self Revolution

You know, I'm sitting here, and I'm thinking, "I don't like the way I'm living my life." I want a self-revolution, and I don't mean just in the physical sense. I've been seeing this guy for a few weeks, and earlier on the phone I asked him to start Weight Watchers with me. "I can't do this alone," I said. He asked why, and I said, "Because I don't have any self-discipline! You know that!" And he said, "Well, maybe by doing this, you'll learn some." And he has a point. I feel trapped inside my body, and it's not because anyone is telling me that I should feel trapped inside my body. With the way I'm going, I'm afraid I'm not gonna live past 50, and if I do make it there, it's not going to be without a host of health problems.

I want to change the way I feel, change the way I look, change the way I think. It's time to stop bullshitting and live the way I should be. For me.